Actually I didn't care if those girls where there or not, I went to the Castle Road, and had very much fun. It was beautiful. And I saw them, but didn't talked to them So no problems

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"Go die or rock tonight, no tradeoff, there's just dead or rock!"

Good for you, Kemi....

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Curiously noted that a number of the dividing lines between thread topics are missing... I wonder why?


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The line appears to be missing between the first and second and then between the twelth and thirteenth thread lines in all four thread catagories...

I've noticed it before, just never commented on it...

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I'm in such a gloomy mood these days, that I just need someone who can cheer me up. My family can't do that, clearly...my mom and dad only say I shouldn't complain so much and say I'm just acting stupid, overreacting and thinking negative about everything. I know it's partly true, but I think, maybe I fear, I also struggle with myself, with who I really am, and I just need some love, I think. I'm feeling lonely, I feel like there aren't people like me in my company.

Overall; I am thinking so negative about school. Just had my first day at school again, and after hearing the programma I just want to quit, it's no fun anymore, how I long back to my holiday job, which was fun with my co-workers, in a steady environment and with a steady scedule and no homework, and making money.
But..it would be a shame to quit school...ah man, so many thoughts...I wish I had someone to talk to about this, someone who would actually understand me

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"Go die or rock tonight, no tradeoff, there's just dead or rock!"

For what it is worth, if you feel like just bursting out and screaming and ranting and raving at or to someone, go ahead and PM me. I do not mind and have acted as a sounding board before. And what is said to me in comfidence, stays there. Sometimes just letting go helps. I may not be able to help, but I am willing to listen.

I know that I am a guy, but sometimes I have been able to help just from looking at the situation from a different perspective...

Regardless of what course you follow, good luck my friend...

And, if you feel more comfortable talking to a girl, I am sure that there are a number of ladies here in the Tavern that would be willing to talk with you...

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I'm in such a gloomy mood these days, that I just need someone who can cheer me up. My family can't do that, clearly...my mom and dad only say I shouldn't complain so much and say I'm just acting stupid, overreacting and thinking negative about everything. I know it's partly true, but I think, maybe I fear, I also struggle with myself, with who I really am, and I just need some love, I think. I'm feeling lonely, I feel like there aren't people like me in my company.

Overall; I am thinking so negative about school. Just had my first day at school again, and after hearing the programma I just want to quit, it's no fun anymore, how I long back to my holiday job, which was fun with my co-workers, in a steady environment and with a steady scedule and no homework, and making money.
But..it would be a shame to quit school...ah man, so many thoughts...I wish I had someone to talk to about this, someone who would actually understand me

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School wasnt for me either mate, I always wanted to work. But itis worth the hard yards. If I had paid attention at school instead of being unmoticated and hateful I would have made more friends and wouldnt be a **** kicking labourer. But if I went back I would probably do it the same. Only recently did I become happy. I have a group of loyal friends and to me, the rest of the world dosn't matter becuase only they do. Dropping out of school is not shamefull either, being a hard worker is all you need to be. No matter your job or position hard work is whats appreciated by thosee surrounding you and their the ones who count. Basically if your a hard worker, your not a useless bum. Dont try to be different. Try to be you, and the difference sorts itself out. Dont be ashamed of your personality. Think more about whats going on immediately and indulge your impulses.
Chin up mate it only gets harder. But more fun to. Do stuff for pride. For example I make my bed every day and my bedroom is spotless even though im a slob, when I let it get bad I feal shit, as if I become dirty and dank with it. Those small things are me and I am proud of them.
Dont get regrets. I did a lot of prescription drugs and weed at high school becuase my depression turned to anger and my anger led to self destructive patterns. (hate stoners nowdays lol) and am pretty ashamed of it now. (but of course i still drink beer). Ponder on it mate it gets clearer as you get older.

Thank you all for the sweet words, it surely helped me to think it over. But I think I forgot to mention that I already have a diplom in Tourism and Leisure Management, got that when I was 20 years old.
Now I am 22 and school feels like kindergarten sometimes, haha...you know.

But thanks so much guys, I am school right now, waiting for my next lesson, I have to wait three hours for it and all that waiting makes me even more tired and gloomy, so that's definitely not good. I will definitely follow your advice and watch Spirited Away, I am even looking forward to watch some Ghibli masterworks again, it's been a while..


But, thanks guys! Of course I know my parents want to do what is best for me and wanting me to believe in myself and convincing me that I can do this. But that doesn't mean it's not hard when they always are on ''the other side'' when it comes to opinions and ideas about the future..

Ah well...we'll see how things go. I never was a ''go-getter'' but I know it's for the best to try changing things.

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"Go die or rock tonight, no tradeoff, there's just dead or rock!"

I'm the stubborn go-getter. XD I don't settle until I have what I want. But my mom's been trying to talk me out of university. She doesn't see the point of me going. She's asked me if I had the money that I wouldn't go to university and instead go to community college for hospitality and tourism so I can open my business. But that's not what I want to do right now.

I'm sure I'll dislike it myself. But it'll be worth my time. We still haven't gotten the application for the one I want to attend. My boyfriend really wants to go to school. I guess he didn't do well in high school or something, since it's been hinted that he was careless and never did assignments or cared about learning. Since he would have likely just graduated when his dad died, and he was about to go to university there.. hm. He definitely changed a lot. I don't know if he can become a doctor, but he can try, as long as he's willing to put time and effort into something. He thought it was weird since I was happy with ending my job soon. But I'm the type who appreciates work, yet only wants to work jobs that fit me.

He seemed happy with the idea of me being able to live near a friend when I move out, but.. no. -.-;; Seems I'm going alone. Waa.. it'll probably be with him anyhow. XD It seems our plans match up. But I don't want to suggest that just yet. I'm just following what I'm being told by my self.

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Originally posted by Kemi
Thank you all for the sweet words, it surely helped me to think it over. But I think I forgot to mention that I already have a diplom in Tourism and Leisure Management, got that when I was 20 years old.
Now I am 22 and school feels like kindergarten sometimes, haha...you know.

But thanks so much guys, I am school right now, waiting for my next lesson, I have to wait three hours for it and all that waiting makes me even more tired and gloomy, so that's definitely not good. I will definitely follow your advice and watch Spirited Away, I am even looking forward to watch some Ghibli masterworks again, it's been a while..


But, thanks guys! Of course I know my parents want to do what is best for me and wanting me to believe in myself and convincing me that I can do this. But that doesn't mean it's not hard when they always are on ''the other side'' when it comes to opinions and ideas about the future..

Ah well...we'll see how things go. I never was a ''go-getter'' but I know it's for the best to try changing things.

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Lol go get 'em tiger.


At least you guys are doing something for the future. I live in a place surrounded by lazy bastards contributing nothing to society but the wages for barstaff. Youths who care more about drugs pubs and fighting than work or further education. Adults who are capable of work but can't hold a job. I Actually get offended when I see older poeple on welfare drinking there life away in a cheap rented flat when they should own there own house.


I dont have an education, I didnt complete high school I am a 2nd year apprentice chef and will never complete my apprenticeship but at least I can bloody work, I have nice clothes eat nice food look after myself and care for my appearance (which I do wonder about becuase I dont care what other poeple think of my appearance). I'm clean my lifestyle is clean and apart from the odd swear word I have learnt etiquette. But all of that is superficial pride to make up for ealier bad choices. At the end of the day, I work hard. So I am worthy to breath oxygen. Same to everyone else actively bettering self through work family or study. "nothings ever ******* easy" (quoting my Dad, he'd bellow that on his little hobby farm or in his shed when equipment broke or repairs went wrong or the dogs got out of the yard into the chooks lol) and therefore doing anything easy is a sin against the oxygen I have to share. I live in a sharehouse (6 rooms rented out individually) and clean up after these bloody poeple. Hence my irritation lol. But meh, ill own my own house in 6 or 7 years. Theyll still be here. Breathing that oxygen that plants work hard to make.

Two things I have to ask about, Thug...

WTH is a 'chook'?

and why won't you finish your chef apprenticeship? As a 2nd year, it sounds like you are well on your way.

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A chook is a chicken lol. And I dont handle stress to well or being told what to do so cheffing is out ofthe question. I did learn a fair bit and picked up plenty of skills but its not for me. I am a happy dumb as dogshit labourer. Oneday ill own a little block of land and some cattle and a huge shed and huge garden and huge bike (rocket3 ) and all those simple things will come from my simple job. I cant pay for it all with pride lol. Or a job that I cant handle.

I told you not to stick two halves of cucumber to your temples, but would you listen?

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"An old man like me stands no chance fighting against a high school girl in her underwear" - Oshino Meme, Nekomonogatari (Kuro)

lol Saddle. XD



I'm so happy. But a bit afraid. I'm the talk of my boyfriend's workplace as well as everyone he knows in his home country, from old classmates to his family and friends. >.< A bit nervous knowing that. He knows a lot of people, so... I don't feel like there's an expectation of me, merely that I'm going to be looked at like a rare oddity. o.O

When he got to work today, everyone stopped their work. They stared at him and fell silent. He thought it was really awkward at first until someone broke the silence and asked him about his girlfriend. Then all of a sudden EVERYONE started attacking him with questions. He said they were all surprised he was dating someone like me.

One of his old friends from the Philippines asked to befriend me. I'm not sure how good his friends English is to his, because he told me he had some of the best English grades there. I have to agree. His writing is so neat. And his accent only makes it hard to understand what he says sometimes.

Nervous. o.o NERVOUS. I wonder if I'll be questioned at school?

I remember...

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Random thoughts hmm... here is one, im beginning to question whats going on in the world. It seems decisive.

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@hope...

check out the quotes....

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Am I the only one who hasn't been able to access the Tavern for several days?

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Yes.

Probably because you didn't know the secret password.

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Isakaya High School Roleplaying Info

"An old man like me stands no chance fighting against a high school girl in her underwear" - Oshino Meme, Nekomonogatari (Kuro)